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Dear Donna, I am co-founder of a group called
aspies for freedom. I have found your books and
approach very inspiring, I am diagnosed with AS
and my son is too. One of the main aims of aspies
for freedom is to fight against the idea of a
cure for us. We dont want to lose who we are,
and have future autistics wiped through genetic
screening. Could you give your opinion on a cure,
or support us in anyway, have a look at our website?
Many thanks for your time, Amy Roberts.
http://as4freedom.proboards32.com/
Dear Amy,
Thanks for your letter asking for my view on Aspies
for Freedom and your concerns about the push to
'cure' Autism. I felt the reply and the topic
were worth a wider forum so I've sent my reply
back to you but also out on the airwaves.
As a consultant in the field of Autism for the
last ten years I have seen many people diagnosed
at both the Autistic and Asperger's end of the
spectrum.
I have found that Aspies are a far more homegenous
group than those with Autism. The only thing the
whole lot generally have in common is that of
having a different style of information processing,
generally in that they are 'mono-tracked' in a
'multi-track' world but saying that, the underlying
causes of this are different for different people.
Where those causes are to do with a delayed development
in neurological integration these things will
likely be fairly fixed for life and I totally
support you in saying that this style of information
processing needs to be supported on all levels
as that person's 'normality'. This is often far
more the case among the Aspie community than among
the Autie community.
In the Autie community, the delay in neurological
integration is often dramatically improvable where
gut/immune/toxicity issues are treated so that
information processing capacity is freed up and
neurological integration ends up kicking in. Immune
deficiency is known to effect around 20% of people
diagnosed as Autistic and I'm sure you'll appreciate
that it would be equally inhumane to treat immune
deficiency. Personally, I was sick every six weeks
for most of my life, with bugs lasting up to 3
months at a time till my lungs were too weak to
cough and I had to hang upside down off the side
of the bed to drain much from my lungs. I feared
suffocation in my own lung infections, my throat
was often too infected to swallow without great
pain and I spent most of my childhood with chronic
ear infections. So you can appreciate that such
things MUST be treated and cured and that if that
decreases the level of someone's information processing
issues, then so be it.
Up to 60% of children with Autism have Salicylate
intolerance causing them sometimes painful and
socially limiting inflammatory bowel problems,
often excruciating excema, recurrent infections
and fragmented vision so severe they may never
be able to read or recognise a face and may be
'object blind' and essentially stuck in a purely
sensory world. Whilst I've been there and loved
that world where interpretive meaning did not
exist, any Aspie who can enjoy reading and books
and recognise the face of their partner when walking
in a supermarket together will know how essential
treatment for such toxicity issues can be. Auties
with this severity of problems are not asking
to be non-autistic, just to be less terrified
and gain access to the world of meaning. Most
who do so won't be non-autistic but in fact simply
more Aspie than Autie.
Up to 30% of children with Autism will have Rapid
Cycling Childhood Bipolar according to the National
Autistic Society UKs website. This bipolar state
in its extreme can fluctuate up to several times
a day and result in severe self injury, violent
behaviours and real endangerment to self and others.
In this state I have attacked myself ferociously
and had no idea this was my body, I have kicked
people down stairs, I have run at furniture over
and over smashing myself into it, I have believed
I could fly and wanted to jump off buildings and
I have believed I could control traffic and would
walk out infront of oncoming cars and the emotional
extremes from before age three left me traumatised
at the overwhelming power of emotion to the degree
I became terrified of feelings and being overstimulated
be external initiations and the constant extremes
and utter loss of control severely effected peronality
development, trust in interaction and sense of
self. The contant taxing of my health by such
states underpinned much of the immune deficiency
meaning it condemned me to chronic infections
and eventually chronic fatigue. It would be utterly
inhumane to not treat a severe Bipolar condition
in an adult and the same is true of an affected
child where such Bipolar is being labelled part
of their Autism. So again, whilst I of all people
no the glories of Bipolar, I acknowlege what it
costs and takes and I would impose on no child
that they be refused treatment for a traumatising
medical condition. One could argue the same is
true of children who have severe endogenous Depression
leading to severe rigidity, mutism and withdrawal.
It would be inhumane to refuse any person treatment
for depression, including a child. Of course environmental
causes for depression should always be addressed
first.
A large percentage of children with Autism have
(often treatable) Obsessive Compulsive Disorder
and Tourette's and in a severe degree this can
be overwhelming, bring on depression, severely
exaccerbate social phobia and make children prisoners
in their own body. I have had compulsive coughing
of Tourette's so badly at 2 years old that I was
hospitalised for coughing up blood constantly
as a result. I have had tics to slap myself to
the degree my jaw was riddled with abscesses.
I have had OCD so badly I became terrified of
breathing in an uneven fashion or sleeping for
fear I'd crease a sheet or move from the exact
centre of the bed so was compelled to deprive
myself of sleep to the degree I was utterly imprisoned
and miserable. Obsessive Compulsive Disorder is
NOT Obsessive Compulsive Personality and I would
never suggest people breed out personality traits.
Obsessive Compulsive Personality is seen as part
of the self and is able to be constructively channelled
and should be constructively supported in our
society. OCD by contrast is a disabling and rigid
condition which the person themselves does not
identify with and instead feels imprisoned by.
So we need to be clear that in supporting one
we are not condemning people to imprisonment with
the other.
Many Aspies have Avoidant Personality or Schizoid
personality making social involvement rather different,
if not sometimes avoided. Again these things need
to be respected, supported, understood and these
people should not be made to feel inferior or
broken. But my experience is that whilst around
60% of Auties would fit these personality traits,
another 30% do not but have a severely disabling
anxiety disorder I call Exposure Anxiety. Exposure
Anxiety, like OCD and Tourette's is not felt as
part of one's selfhood but it does involve a chronic
fight-flight state in which one may be imprisoned
in involuntary and compulsive avoidance, diversion
and retaliation responses and unable to do for
oneself, as oneself or by oneself. It is a state
comparable to an emotional 'palsy' so when the
person may be compelled to vomit up food they
wanted to eat, compelled to hold on for a day
because they desperately need the toilet, compelled
to starve themselves because they are aware they
are hungry, compelled to reject or go without
a jacket when they know they are cold, diverted
into any direction but the one they actually want
and compelled to reject any attention or help
that triggers 'exposure'. You can just imagine
how difficult this imprisonment is and the impact
of despair and a severely impaired relationship
with one's body and communication. Any technique
that allowed someone with Cerebral Palsy to connect
with the world I would utterly support. The same
is true with Exposure Anxiety. Do I believe in
treatment for Exposure Anxiety? Yes. Would I say
the same of Avoidant Personality or Schizoid Personality
which may look similar on the surface, no probably
not, I'd merely want them supported.
Around 30% of the children with Autism I see are
'meaning deaf', sometimes severely. Where those
with Asperger's know what it is to not get 'the
significance', 'the point' and may live in a literal
world, nevertheless they live in a world of interpretive
meaning. For those with Autism who are shut out
of interpretive, even literal meaning, they need
accepting, supporting, yes, but they also need
the same assistance we'd give a deaf child. They
need gestural signing, the use of representational
objects to capture 'experience', and the treatment
of any gut/immune or neurological organisation
issues limiting their access to interpretive processing.
I was a meaning deaf child. I lived in a world
where people talked on the TV, everywhere but
I couldn't understand their speech. I could not
think in pictures; the fragmented vision of my
childhood had made forming pictures impossible,
I formed impressions, and thought in the sensory
experience of something. If you showed me a picture
it was a series of shapes, lines and colors, if
you gave me an object or used gestural signing
or brought an object to life, bingo, it meant
something. So the representation of those 'like
me' as all 'thinking in pictures' also offends
and whilst I cannot think in words either, I personally
feel excluded by anyone who paints all 'Autistics'
as thinking in pictures, especially when a major
part of my challenges is I cannot form pictures
internally and am forced to use external objects
to hold concepts. Central Auditory Processing
Disorder is like being always a migrant who can
never grasp the language, always closed out from
the world of meaning and left behind from conversation,
books and most social inclusion. I had perhaps
10% receptive language at age 9, 50% by my 20s
and the 50-70% I have now is due to diet and supplementation
and brain gym and tinted lenses (by reducing the
visual issues I improved the auditory ones) and
employing techniques and I feel that has given
me a world of inclusion and getting out of my
head and into the world I'd otherwise not have
had. I would deny nobody in this situation help
and treatment for any underlying causes of a severe
Central Auditory Processing Disorder for who am
I to insist others should remain 'meaning deaf'
because I believe they are all happy being this.
Of course when one can't share in a reality of
receptive language and interpretive meaning there
is the big wide (sometimes empty and fragmented)
world of being in one's own head (deaf children
often were the same till given sign language)
but that doesn't constitute choice, access or
equal opportunity. We can no more deny the needs
of 'meaning deaf' people with Central Auditory
Processing Disorder than deny signing and lip
reading opportunities to those who are deaf.
Whilst most Aspies have a high IQ score, many
Auties do not. Even after getting a university
degree, my IQ score was just under 70, putting
me in the 'retarded' range. This is an utterly
biased test based on non-autistic reality and
reliant on the ability to use visual interpretation
and process written language. However, the fact
remains that those who are like this will have
some severe recognition and comprehension problems
in daily living, generally more extremely than
most people with Asperger's so whilst Aspies must
be recognised for their high IQs and interpretive
abilities, they must equally accept their are
those who wilst needing to have thier own different
intelligence appreciated, might equally need to
have their interpretive weaknesses equally acknowleged
without this meaning subordination or loss of
rights to control their own life. The truth is
some of us are Autistic Savants and that for those
of us with severe receptive processing or receptive
learning challenges it would be extremely socially
unfair to assume us all to have extremely high
IQs akin to our Aspie cousins. I love my Aspie
friends but I although I can write like a genius
and in sensing and mapping pattern I'm equally
at a genuis level, I can't keep up receptively
with their verbal language nor read their books
beyond much of a 7 year old's level (but I can
scan them), and after 20 mins this can reduce
to that of a 3 year old's comprehension (and I
can still flod my unconscious mind with these
patterns which will eventually be processed back
there in unknown knowing). These differences need
to be acknowledged and respected not just by non-auties
but by Aspies who sometimes assume their reality
also represents all facets of the Auties reality.
Most of my life I feel like I'm an animal more
than a human being and using mind with conscious
awareness is mostly still allusive or short lived
for me. By contrast most Aspies rarely know a
world without constant conscious thinking and
connection with having a mind. So these things
are very different and I think many Auties with
low or very low IQ scores would run rings around
both non-auties and many Aspies in the sensing
stakes and when Aspie people celebrate and publicise
their own interpretive intelligence, whilst I'm
glad for them, I personally feel excluded (no
offence meant).
I do agree with you that diversity must be respected
and appreciated. I respect that what is NOT harming
someone or others or NOT severely limiting their
voluntary use of their body, their relationship
to their emotions, the development of interpretive
thinking, their access to acquiring receptive
language or visual meaning should be appreciated
in its own right. Equally, just as their is an
extreme difference between someone with mild cerebral
palsy and someone imprisoned by it, those who
do not have severely impairing and limiting conditions
must be respectfully aware that being part of
the same spectrum does not give any of them a
right to impose one set of politics for all where
the needs at some other end of the spectrum may
be dramatically different. So I totally respect
in all people on the Autistic Spectrum that there
are things which do not need treatment or cure
and that in many people with Asperger's there
is nothing they are suffering from unless they
are made to feel this way by those who don't understand
them. But, equally, there are things in some people
which are often called a part of that person's
Autism, where it would be inhumane to withold
treatment or cure. As good delegates, advocates
and humanitarians, we need to understand this
spectrum has many colors, not one so when we discuss
unity, it should be in that context. Diversity
means diversity not just in society but recognising
diversity in the entire Autistic Spectrum. Whilst
I utterly agree that Autism Spectrum Conditions
and their components should not be genetically
bred out and that it is a supremist imposition
to think that should be justified, I do feel that
treatment needs to be given to those who need
it for the things it is actually needed for and
not imposed where a changed environmental approach
is far more appropriate as 'medicine'. I have
fully covered these arguments and issues in my
current upcoming book, The Jumbled Jigsaw; A multidimensional
Approach to the Cluster Condition of Autism which
I believe may be out next year.
Feel free to use this piece in it's entirity only.
(copyright 2004 Donna Williams)
Thanks... Donna Williams www.donnawilliams.net
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