It was the first Sunday in December, which we refer to as the Advent of Hope Sunday. Christian, 3 years old son, had just been diagnosed with high functioning autism and I was very grieved with this news. In my attempt to sort out the grief and the pain, I started to go to church in order to seek God for the answers to my questions with my son’s disability.
My son is a beautiful little boy whose heart is amazing. He was talking, but it was limited. It seems like at that time in our journey to understand Autism, we hung on and waited with great anticipation. It was hard to accept the autism and I feel I used every means within my grasp to rage against and try to reach him.
In church, they showed a video of a family who had asked God for a child and after coming to the altar on the Advent of Hope Sunday and turning this over in prayer, they had found their family blessed with a child.
As I was listening to our minister talk about how amazing things had happened in our church on the Advent of Hope Sunday, I decided to go get Christian from the nursery to have him prayed over. I went and picked up from the nursery and was greeted so joyfully.
Christian was excited he was going into church. We walked to the altar and where greeted by a minister that also has a special needs child. I asked him to pray over Christian for his healing and we knelt down to pray.
I said to Christian “Let’s pray” and he said “I pray Mommy”. I was ready with my prayer to ask God for his healing of his Autism and for continued growth, when Christian began singing.
“Jesus loves me this I know. For the bible tells me so. Little ones to him belong. They are weak but he is strong. Yes… Jesus loves me”.
As tears streamed down my face, I realized that God had spoken to me through Christian, and I realized that Christian was loved exactly as he was. It was in that moment that I began to accept his disability as my meeting place with God and my place to heal.
I believe in what Christian’s heart was singing and saying. He gave a voice to his prayer and I was thankful for God’s blessings, to give voice to his heart.
* Stories From the Heart is an ongoing series of user contributed heart warming stories, that shine light on the Autism experience.